Okay so in case you missed my last wall post on the MG site I am now officially a hater of haters and I really am extremely offended by the words of one of the members of my ward who I had thought was my friend.
So here is how it went down. I was playing games at this kid in my wards house and we were just talkin and then it gets down to the basics of what is going in my life so of course I talk about Brent I mean how can I stop. So we are talking about it and some self righteous kid is all like I think that all boys need to break up with their girlfriends before they leave. And I was like that is not such a good idea. And then he went all whatever no girl is the exception to the rule so there is no need to justify your way out of it, NO EXCEPTIONS. I firstly wanted to say well there is no rule, secondly I am not clingy and possesive of him, thirdly I have done exactly as he wished which was date other people and lastly I am sick of you indoctrinating me into believing that I am a bad person cause I have done what is right. Well here they go on about how bad of an idea it is to have me waiting around for a missionary cause blah I am a distraction and he should lock his heart and give me a break I am sick of it and after a while coming from all parties surronding me I was feeling quite hurt. So in my normal style after being hurt I kinda shrug and play off a lot of stuff and my friend Rose could totally tell that this was a major thing running through my head and so she is all like you don't have to feel bad and I was like but I choose to. Here is where it gets better. So the other kids whos' house we were crashing at was like well choosing to feel bad about yourself is not taking advantage of the atonement like it should be and I was like *shrug* whatever. And then Rose keeps trying to cheer me up but I don't want to be and then this other kid keeps giving me a super hard time about all sorts of stuff about how I am feeling and I do not want to hear as all of you can very well imagine. Well I wasn't just going to get up and leave cause that would just kinda scream I am totally offended I am leaving now. So I sit through this and deal with it and get on with my life. Eventually I leave and of course I get in my car turn on my Brent music and start driving. As soon as I am away from visibility from the house I start crying and having retortal conversations to myself hoping that it would make a difference in what happened, which of course we know won't happen. Then I finally get home and that is when it hits me that hello I just need to vent to someone who understands. That is why this story is written all over the MG wall and now on my blog.
Tis all for the super lonely, waiter hater and self righteouss lecturer hater
PS Politics were also discussed in this conversation and y'all should be proud of me for not opening my mouth too wide actually not opening my mouth at all. I am so glad I have somewhere to vent about my problems.
1 comment:
Jordin, he didn't know what he was talking about. And I know what you mean that sometimes you just want to feel bad!
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