What you are listening to...

Okay so there in case you haven't noticed there is music playing in the background whil reading this. well here is why I thought it would give you all a better understanding of what is happening in my life and why I feel the way I feel.

1. Traveling Soldier by Dixie Chicks, yeah Brent is not actually a soldier but he is a member of Gods Army is that close enough. Seriously I am just like I really like the waiting for letters theme in this letter it just makes me sooo happy.
2. Lucky by Jason Mraz and Colbie Calliat, okay the song that I swear evry MG has on their playlist. It is totally about knowing which souls can connect over a varying area of circumstance. We can somehow connect with each other and know when something is wrong without saying a word to each other. We are just in love like that I guess.
3. I believe in Love by Dixie Chicks, I believe in love it is that simple. Gah do I love that Cowboy and Indian, man that will be a lot of fun when he gets home.
4. There You'll Be by Faith Hill, okay so it is totally a song that talks about how no matter what is happening we will always be there for each other and we will never let each other go, even from our memories, cause that is the type of impact we have had on each others lives.
5. Not a Day Goes By by Lonestar, I cannot go a single day without thinking about Brent and the amazing man of God that he is becoming. I am always thinking about him it seems like. I do not know what I will do once he is home and thinking about him constatly is replaced with him actually being here. I am always thinking about him even if I don't admit it to him all the time.
6. Come Home Soon by SheDaisy, okay so this song is one that has a video that is for soldiers once again but I feel that it applies so well to MGs that I couldn't resist. It also talks about how I go about my normal everyday life and while doing so I cannot help but think about how life will be when he comes home. I hope he is wishing on the same stars and the same everything else. I know I am not alone but I know that I feel very alone and it is hard and I want him here so that I am not alone.
7. Love Story by Taylor Swift, Okay so this pretty much needs me to explain every little part of it that fits into my life. So the beggining it talks about how we were both young and that we were told not to be together. Well I was twelve and Brent was fourteen when we met and then his parents pulled him away and we could not see each other any more. The next part in the song is about how they secretly see each other. Then when we got older we started having a little correspondence between each other and that for the most part it was secret. Then it goes into a part about how their love is difficult and that it is still real. That is me and Brent, people are always telling me that I should not feel this way. Hello that is exactly word for word of my life. "They're trying to tell me how to feel. This love is difficult but its real. Don't be afraid we'll make it out of this mess its a love story baby just say yes."
8. What Hurts the Most by Rascal Flatts, okay so this song is about death and other bad suff but I know that what is hurting so much is the things that I never got to say to Brent before he left cause I was afraid of what was going to happen if I did tell him. I am also feeling a different type of pain than most people because my experience is different than everybody elses, including MGs, I am the only one to explain what is happening. What hurts the most was being so close.

These are the songs take em or leave em for whatever you want to.