Monday, October 27, 2008

What has happened?!?!?

Okay so I have lately been losing sleep cause I am having nightmares and I am afraid to fall asleep. These nightmares have been differing in scariness and feelings caused in me. The first set of these occured a few months ago when I decided to take a hiatus from boys even though BRent told me to date. These dreams have involved anything from us holding hands out in front of us in a position to kiss with hands to our sides but in the grasp of each other and then turning away. This dream was also followed by a series of dreams where we see each other and realize that we are not meant to be even though we never reconnected or anything like that. The third one was really wierd and I haven't had it more than that one time. But it involved me and a rather ridiculous outfit. Then BRent questioning what I was wearing and why and then not getting the ending cause someone decided to call me super early like six AM. (This one I may have decoded I think it means that I BRent and I are not as well matched for eachother as a couple quite a bit like my outfit that I was wearing in my dreams) Other dreams that me and BRent have both been in are about either him dying or us not working out for some reason or another. I keep getting scared to fall asleep cause I am afraid of the nightmares that are bound to follow.I need some extra help someway to get me through this cause I cannot go without sleep for two more months and three days.

If you have an advice or suggestions or anything that you think might help please let me help.

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